I've just been from Lit class. It's actually Lit and Society class and there are some terms we use that we've discussed in minor subjects. Socio is really interesting once it's applied. But when you're on the verge of reading something more "raw" or uninterpreted it's really difficult to understand. :|
Today we talked about Dead Stars, some awarded literature even though it's not that good. It's a hallmark, on the other hand, because it was the one of the first English short stories written by a Filipina. A simple love story, supposedly. There's this guy named Alfredo, engaged to Esperanza. Alfredo is a lawyer, unhurried, boring. Esperanza is prude, modern but conservative, boring also, I can almost relate her to someone I know. Four years of long engagement, the guy meets Julia, stereotypically, a free-spirit, lower-than-their-class girl whom for the first time, Alfredo found excitement. Six weeks of flirting later, Julia learns of his engagement and has to leave. Alfredo married Esperanza because it's almost as if he has to. After four years of average marriage, he visits Julia, and found something: nothing! All those years of thinking of her, yet when he finally sees her the feeling is gone. The story is called Dead Stars for a reason.. dead stars I learned are, well, dead stars whose light is still travelling through galaxies, making it visible on earth even though they're not really there.
This story is just like what the other stories we've tackled before about love (always one reading every meeting): Araby and Reconaissance. Araby is about a early teenaged boy who's intensely and a bit sexually inlove with this girl. He went to a bazaar (Araby is the name) to find something to take home from the girl, and that's when he made his anguished realization that he is used by the girl. Reconaissance is sexual, innocence-stripped-away story, about a little girl, we estimated about 5-7 years old, who peeped through a window and saw an old couple having fun while having masochistic sex. She was shocked, scared, but very excited. I bet you can almost relate. HAHA. Kidding. Somehow that short moment of her life had an effect on her when she grew up. Reconaissance means spying, a term used in war.
So what's the connection between Araby, Reconaissance and Dead Stars? Discoveries about love that change a person. Have you ever made discoveries about love? I can only hypothesize. Let me share what I know so far. You can quote me on this. Haha. 1) A relationship that begins with a joke does not end with a laugh. 2) You can never really flirt with the person you really like. Maybe that's because you want him/her to like you for who you really are, or you're just too scared. 3) A love that intensifies too fast crashes and burns really fast, tomorrow you wake up thinking "Oh it was nothing" but yesterday it was everything.
Too much preaching? Haha. This will add up later on. But for now I'm off to Theories class (No, really). :))